Physicology/33

Hi everyone,

For the last seven days, my body has been in waiting. Specifically, it has been waiting for any sign of symptoms. Each day, my eyes dart back and forth, my muscles brace for the slippery slope, my mind remains on alert, ready to shut off at the first sign.

Yet, nothing. Only stillness.

No joint pain, no afternoon dip of energy, no inflammation. I wake up rested (even when I don't get enough sleep), I stay alert and engaged all day, and my mood remains steady. Yesterday, I woke up at the awful hour of 5:30a to go to a conference in Seattle. After a full day of workshops, networking, and engagement, I felt pretty tired by the time I got back to my friend's home for dinner - a normal response that anyone would feel.

This is the point when I really want to swear in jubilation, but I am saving those words for my own head. In reality, I'm bubbling over with happiness and knee-slapping laughter. I'm dumbfounded and surprised. My body is actually working; it's healing itself. And I can't believe I'm here: here in this space, living in this moment, seeing the fruits of my labor, experiencing the depth of God's grace living in and through me.

I'm here. Not back there. Not ahead over there. Just here.

A.