Thirteen Thousand Five Hundred Thirty-Six Dollars

Dear friends,

In the year 2009, I spent $13,536.51 on medical expenses. On average, I spent approximately $1,128 each month on the most extensive renovation I will ever embark on. I spent money on prescription co-pays (and, since losing my medical insurance, prescriptions that are entirely out of pocket); blood tests; insurance premiums; supplements; and doctor, acupuncture, rifing, massage and chiropractic visits. I personally drove 1,987 miles to visit my doctor and to go to coiling treatments. (And all that without owning a car!) Had I driven to all my coiling treatments, I would have to tack on another thousand miles or so.

Like in 2008, I technically spent more than I earned all year, not including some small house-sitting gigs I had. Sometimes I don't know how I do it. But then I remember that I do have the help of my parents who have always been incredibly supportive in that area. They gave me quite a substantial sum last year to meet my expenses, both living and medical. A good part of me feels really bad about this; I wish it weren't this way. Because I spent the few years I had between high school and the point of illness striving for self-sufficiency. Relying on my parents was not in my plan. Ever.

Yet, I remind myself that this too shall pass. That I have no other option. That without adequate - no, excellent care now, the costs will only soar later. In just under two years, since the point when I made a conscious decision to treat Lyme in all its glory, I am nearing the end. I am applying to jobs (for real this time), I am living on my own, and I am healthier. Most of all, I can imagine the future, that is, if it's not already here.

A.